I definitely have dropped of the face of blog planet for a while and when ever this happens I hum and haw about wether or not to keep this blog up or not?
Since having Ellie I have had many struggles I did not think I would have being a mother! I have looked forward to motherhood my whole life, always loving all of my dolls as a child, each of them having there own first and middle name, setting up a school room so I could be the teacher to all of my pupils which consisted of every doll and stuffed animal I had. Always being the "sitter" on the block with multiple offers to watch the neighbourhood kids on friday and saturday night, and enjoying nannying for the families I worked for! Don't get me wrong I LOVE being a mom and enjoying my days with my sweet Ellie girl! I just never thought I would be the one to "lose motivation" "gain all the baby weight back plus some after I had just lost a 3rd of it." but most of all to let these things and other things get me down. Now I am not looking for a pitty party here, just some background info of where this blog is coming from. SO! As I pondered the question of keep blogging...stop blogging it hit me!
WHY NOT? As I thought about this all I could think of were
Who cares if we "fail". I dislike this word, and it has never made that much sense to me, as I remember a quote I once herd "We only fail if we don't try." I love this quote and how true it is! Just because we didn't get the outcome or results we had hoped for, doesn't mean we failed. Just because we did not lose as much weight as we had hoped for the first go around does not mean we failed, it means we tried and we are better for it! So no more missy! No more punishing our selfs with the word "fail" when we have tried!
What if we put the word accomplish(ed) in for every time we wanted to use the word "fail(ed)." We are human, we are not perfect machines. We will get messy, probably make a few mistakes, or a lot. People may judge us, but who cares! Jump in! Be you, be yourself, learn, grow, create, get messy! So what if the old lady down the road thinks your crazy! This is my goal this month! To jump in and DO things!
Once I get passed my fear I find myself not doing many things because I think, "well I don't know how to do that", or "wow that might take a while", "I don't know if I can" or my favourite one, "I'm just to tired" (...we all know we mean lazy) Well get off of your britches and get goin! The day ain't getting any younger! Set a goal, stay motivated and better yourself! Even if it is just by a pinch each day, grow into who you want to become! Realize your accomplishments, congratulate your self on these and let them continue to motivate you.
So going back to the question from the beginning of this blog, 'do I keep this blog up?. Why not? I will! Why? Because I can! I love writing, although I am no editor, journalist, or novelist, I enjoy it! I always wanted to become an author! That was always my answer of what I wanted to be when I grew up! So in a little way I look at this blog as accomplishing that dream.
So here is to setting goals, accomplishing the days scariest things, and just loving life!
"Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally work out, and loudly proclaiming, "Wow what a ride!" -Marjorie Pay Hinckley